Making It Through A Bad Day (The Dying Logs Day 29)

Don’t know why WordPress won’t upload my shorts. It worked the first time. That sucks.

Anyways, fits with this damn day. So trash in every way. Just making it through is very difficult.

I’m still very painfully and very slowly recovering body and mind. That hospital stay and pnemonia antibiotic combined with numerous other negative factors have set me back.

It’s hard to even write (and edit in particular). I feel super nauseous and the desperate need to lie down whenever I even sit up.

That being said it’s not all bad. I’ve gained quite a bit of weight and it seems like my gut has recovered. Like sorry for the somewhat gross info but my stool looks the best it’s looked in probably 6 months. That is an amazing sign.

But man I have this nasty nasty feeling and partly it’s benzo withdrawal. I straight up had a freak out which was 100& from cutting down on the benzo.

All these problems, bladder, bowel, mental trying to hit on full cylinders. But mostly I just feel very intense malaise.

But we gonna keep going. Better days will come.